It's starting to feel like spring...

Yes it can't rain forever as what I have said in my earlier post.  But it seems that for the past few months, we had a down pour.  But it starting to feel like spring now.  We are hearing the first chirping of the birds...hopefully our tulips will bloom soon... Yes im speaking in metaphors as I still cannot articulate the mixed emotions of sadness, fear, doubts, frustration, anxiety, joy and so much love I felt since the last quater of 2012...I'm giving myself time, but I want to write it all here to help me remember how through Jehovah God's help and guidance we sustained it all...Give me time...

I have so much to say but I dont know where to begin, but let me share to you my wonderful blessing from the Man Upstairs...I gave birth to a premie....He came 10 weeks too early.Sometimes I feel cheated on having missed out on the end of my pregnancy.No visibly significant stretch marks (pregnancy war wounds so to speak, that makes you proud of it). I was thinking of having prenatal photos taken with my baby bump, but this has just been wishful thinking for  me....

But looking at my dear Miguel now, his hands and toes may be small but he has enough love to fill us all.

Miguel few days after he has discharged from the hospital where he stayed for 45 days...