Yes I have been in hiatus for a while. The fourth quarter of this year has been tough for
us, but so far we have managed, and thus the long silence.
At the onset of the fourth quarter, hubby got flu. So between
taking care of him and trying to stay healthy too because of the growing baby
inside my tummy, I think it was just too much for me that unfortunately I got
the bug as well. (Hirap kasi sa abroad, there is no help and you have to do
everything. Living in a first world
country does have its conveniences but home is where the comfort still is)
I have to stay at home for 3 days because I can only take the mildest of
medicine. And to make matter worse, we
receive news from home that my mother-in-law passed away.
I wanted to go back to be a
support for hubby at one of the darkest period of his life (he is very close to
his mom) but I was having high fever, and doctor’s advice and my family and
friends’ suggestion to the best interest of the baby ‘s health and me is to
just stay put. I know the agony that
hubby has to put up with to be torn between the two women of his life. I assured him I would be alright and that he
does not need to worry about me. After a
few days of rest, and lots of fluid, I recovered, while hubby was back in the
Philippines making funeral arrangements for Mama Oping.
Just when we were recovering from all those blows, after Sunday
service early November, I felt a sudden pain in left side of my tummy. I brushed it aside as just the normal
pregnancy pains and discomfort. Monday came;
I was just trying to bear the pain. I do
have very high tolerance of pain. Good
thing Tuesdays I work from home so I do not have to commute to work, so I still
bear the pain. Wednesday came; I knew it
was something not normal anymore because even with just one single step I would
cry in pain. Thursday, we went to see my
OB. The reason for the pain was the
degenerating fibroid. I knew I have
fibroids early on my pregnancy because my doctor saw it during the first ultra
sound I have. It is about 7cm by 6cm in
size.
Fibroid are benign (non-cancerous) growths present in 30% of women
over the age of 30. Very large fibroids
even if silent (meaning hindi cya masakit
and not a threat to the pregnancy) are inclined to undergo a process called
"degeneration", an event which occurs if the enlarging fibroid
outgrows its blood supply. Not receiving sufficient oxygen, the cells of the
fibroid die, causing abrupt, severe pain and tenderness. That was what I have experienced. I was ordered by my doctor to bed rest for 7
days and asked to take a hormone pill every night to avoid premature
contractions. Up till now I am still
taking my hormone pill because of a “slight” problem with my cervix according
to my OB. It’s close but it slightly
opens and closes again….“Bumubuka buka”. So now I am just following doctor’s order to
avoid walking too much and carrying heavy things. My next check-up would be on the 22nd
of December. Hopefully all would be well
now.
There are still some blows we experienced, but I think I would not
be mentioning all of them in this post already, this post have too much
negative vibes.
We receive blows that knock us down, but if I may quote the well-loved
Filipino boxer Manny Pacquio “Don’t
worry. We will rise again”
With all those things that have happened to us, it has helped me
to see pregnancy and parenthood at a different light. Yes the big fibroid in my tummy is ugly, but
I know I am carrying a beautiful baby. And yes the world can be unfair and tough, but
we will do our best as parents to let our little beanie experience life and
love. Hubby and I echo the worlds of the
Psalmist when he says “But the LORD has become my
fortress, and my God the rock in whom I take refuge.” Psalms 94:22
While the challenges and struggles still continues,
we will put all these things behind us as reminders of how we can rise above it
if keep our unity and love as partners and our full confidence and trust in
God.
My next post would be a happier note. We are preparing beanie’s sleeping area this
weekend! I’m excited!!!
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